Hide and Seek

I sit here.. no longer in the comfort of my dorm, or any library, but instead, on the floor of what used to be home, or lack there of. Thinking I learned enough, I came back to Farmington with an attitude that most would find unsettling. Here I am, however, proved wrong. It started when I was preparing to come back, my bags packed, I had no where to go. This place remains a shadow of my former life, before finally realizing where my life can go upward. However, in order to move forward, I need to close some doors I left open. Coming back, I realized how lost I was when I first got here.. and Here I Am.. once again.. lost

Revisiting some events that I had experienced showed me how far I've come in only a year. However, lost comes again. Today, a friend of mine died today. Two-three years ago, she would make me laugh, often joking with one another, we had a great time. But now, here I am, without her. And although I hadn't talked to her in over a year, her smile still lingers in my mind. The raspy voice, and so many distinct features that made her stand out from the rest I feel that I will remember. Such a loss, but another reminder how precious life is. While my life is showing promise and optimism, I still stand feeling down over the past few incidents. However, at this time, my condolences to the family. So much promise: lost in a matter of time. Knowing I got to see her at graduation smiling, and thinking "hey, it's Larissa" brings me comfort, as I know she lived her life so fully.

Friends come and go into your lives, but those special ones always remain in your heart.. to all the great times we shared.. rest in peace friend.