Monday, July 27, 2009

Barricade

sadness continues to reign, however, finally it feels like the storm is coming to a close.

In only two-three short days, I'll be returning back to Albuquerque, ready to start an entirely new chapter in my life. The past few weeks reigned in new ideas, experiences, and oddly enough, a new name: a new beginning. The conflict started from irrational behavior from my uncle finally made me realize that I wanted to break away from my roots, and I finally wanted to start anew, on my own.
While the anticipation builds, I'm preparing for the stresses I'm sure this will cause, but knowing that keeps me going in the right direction. Often, I'm surprised how well things turn out. College is paid for, grades are good; my credit is being transferred. However, with joy comes sadness. While most people expect me to care for nothing more than myself, I care a great deal when it comes to my close friends. I care deeply for everyone of them, and they know who they are, but when it comes to their heartbreak, my heart takes a stab as well.

In the upcoming days, I'll feel a sense of loss leaving my job. I'll feel a sense of excitement returning to comfortable territory, but I'll also be feeling a new sense of joy, as my journey in growing up is only beginning. However, I will still hold the worry of friends close to me, and make sure they are alright as well. In the truest sense, I'm anticipating the feeling of finally breaking this barricade once called home. Getting ready for the next chapter!